Living Expression is about offering support to people in their homes. I love supporting clients to let go of the things in their lives that complicate and disrupt true flow. But I realise that I can't offer support if I am not asking for support as well. There is an arrogance in thinking that others need support but that I can do it all on my own.

I love the feeling that I know when deep down things are sorted, clean to the bone. I have always loved to have my cupboards organised. Knowing that behind closed doors things are sorted, organised and nothing is hidden. I also love cleaning the inside of things like my dishwasher, my washing machine, oven, the inside of the jug. I love sparkling saucepans and the feeling of a freshly cleaned home. 

There is a place in my home that I have had a problem with and that is what I call my office, it is a desk and the COMPUTER. If I was to describe my computer I would say it is bulging at the seams and ready to burst. I had been ignoring my computer and the mess inside.
About 12 months ago I cleared nearly all my emails, but I did not commit  to setting aside a time each day in my daily routine that would support me to stay up to date with dealing with my emails and so they escalated again. I also left a small folder of papers to look at, which I didn't. Now I was back in the same place. I pile of papers has grown a bit but the computer is out of hand. Because of this every time I go to the computer I feel an anxiousness, I feel unsettled.I can't stay in my body. I can instantly get distracted and not do what it was that I had set out to do. Going to my computer had become quite unbearable.

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So I enrolled in a  4 week course with Simplicity in Living. An online Decluttering My Office course that is offered by Nikki Mckee. During this time I realise so much, I was not seeing what was underneath my cluttered computer. This course allowed me to stop and see what had been avoiding for so long, what I didn't want to look at. This fear I had of commitment left a trail of unfinished tasks. These had been questions that I have been asking myself for years.
What am I afraid of ?
Why won't I complete things ?
Why do I give up and not committee to completing something ? 
I can see now that my small pile of papers was about so much more. 

My 4 weeks course has finished, but this course will be a something that I will take with me for the rest of my life. I am still working on my computer and emails and my basket of papers. But I now know that I am committed to finishing the sorting and also committed to life. But what I realised is that this lack of commitment and trail of incomplete things ran through every facet of my life. I start and then run out of steam, or I reach a hurdle where I would not ask for support. I cannot express what I am feeling. I feel like I have unlocked a vault and thrown away the key. This feels so joyful even more joyful then hanging the clothes on the line. Because now the joy is coming from inside me. I am bursting at the seams.
​Thank you Nikki for offering such an amazing course.
(I will update photos as I  progress)

For more then 40 years when I would spring clean my home it always looked like a bomb had gone off. I would start at one end of the house and work my way through cleaning and clearing as I went along. This would take about 3 days and it was always exhausting. 
This morning I was ponding on the fact that I no longer do this. Now my home feels amazing most of the time, if I loose my connection to me then it is reflected in my home.  The first place to collect a few things is the dinning room table. If don't stop and ask myself what is going on, it will start to run through the house. My dressing table may be the next or sometimes it can be as simple as not folding the washing when I get it of the line.
I used to be hard on myself about this, but I realised that I don't have to be perfect and when things are coming up for me this is how it can be reflected. I regularly feel  the need to spring clean our home. It may be that I have been to a retreat or I can feel in myself that I have had a big shift and feel to re-imprint the house with a new energy. This morning it was the garbage bins, yesterday it was doing the floors. I no longer have this desperate feeling to Spring Clean the whole house. It is now just pockets that need a gentle lift and when I listen to my body there  is no back up or overwhelm, just these gentle messages that keep my whole house running smoothly. Like we are evolving together.